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Lirik What Am I Waiting For?

I changed how I look, how I talk, how I act
I changed even more, I'm no longer yours
Only thing I don't change about me
Is wishing I changed even more
What am I waiting for?

My grandma said, "I wanna visit you to get that L.A. view
But I might die before I ever get the chance to"
I found a subject I could change to
To avoid the awkwardness and realizin' the painful truth
But I wish I gave her honesty
I know losin' memories is frustratin' beyond belief
And every day, there's a new body part to let a doctor see
But all that aside, how do you say that so casually?
What does death mean to you?
All your friends dyin', does it bring stress to you?
Do you think about it? Like, will it hurt at all?
When will my whole life be compressed into a phone call?
Like, yeah, she's gone
I wanna make her last years be a gift from God
But it's a losin' game 'cause I got the news today
It's funny how no matter how ahead you are, you're too late

I changed how I look, how I talk, how I act
I changed even more, I'm no longer yours
Only thing I don't change about me
Is wishing I changed even more
What am I waiting for?

I used to have reoccurrin' dreams about death
So ever since you brought it up, I been sleepin' less
I know what you gon' say, I'm too young to be goin' through it
But can I ask you some questions as the closest one to it?
You so open about it, so I'm curious
Do you think an afterlife will be luxurious?
Do you think it'll treat you as good as Jersey did?
Do you think you'll see your husband?
I'm just tryna picture what it's like to be you
Three kids, five grandchildren all come from you
Maybe 'cause of us, your life has a different meaning and a view
And you're happy to live, but you don't have to
I just can't relate
My life is everything and I'm tryna make it great
But it's a losin' game 'cause I got the news today
It's funny how no matter how ahead you are, you're too late

I changed how I look, how I talk, how I act
I changed even more, I'm no longer yours
Only thing I don't change about me
Is wishin' I changed even more
What am I waiting for?

On our phone call, you tensed up when you mentioned death
It still bother me 'cause I want you to be content
It was the middle of the night, I guess that's where most happen
Did you find contentment or not even know what happened?
The questions I don't have any answers to upset me
Until I realize they're not meant to be
Maybe that's what beautiful about the roll-out
Grandma, Tuesday, I'ma be cryin' my soul out
My birthday's comin' up and even if you lived past it
I still changed the subject every time you hinted at it
'Cause I'm not even supposed to know 'til I'm supposed to know
And until I'm supposed to know, I'll be hopin' I don't
I'll be hopin' I don't, I wish I did more for you
But I know it's a losin' game, I got the news today
It's funny how no matter how ahead you are, you're too late

What is the purpose of this?
The purpose is to say, "I don't give a fuck"
Can you say it one more time?
I could've slapped you
I'm your mother, I'm destroyed
So, so, the character is, is

I changed how I look, how I talk, how I act
I changed even more, I'm no longer yours
Only thing I don't change about me
Is wishin' I changed even more
I changed how I look, how I talk, how I act
I changed even more, I'm no longer yours
Only thing I don't change about me
Is wishin' I changed even more
What are you waiting for?